The Daily Commute
It feels like a routine already. The time actually goes pretty fast. Everyday I load up the vehicle: wheelchair, walker, coloring books, crayons, snacks, Hailey's favorite blanket, and of course, a cup of coffee. Then I help Hailey into the backseat and we head out on our 30 mile drive to Phoenix Children's Hospital and Good Samaritan Hospital for chemotherapy and radiation treatments.
Like clockwork, Hailey colors a few pictures and then bundles up her blanket against the door and settles in for a 30 minute power nap. I, on the other hand, use this time to draw close to God. I pop in my Nicole Mullen CD and go immediately to track #7-"My Redeemer Lives". As I listen to the words of this song I am so quickly reminded that everyday God faithfully puts the sun in place, He gives the ocean it's boundaries, and He hides the moon until the perfect time at night. He is in control of everything including this situation. I glance back at Hailey and watch her sleep so peacefully. I wonder what is going through her little mind. I pray she also knows in her heart that she is in God's hands.
I can't sing worth a lick, but I belt out the words to this song as tears roll down my checks-not caring who sees me or hears me. It's just me and God for the moment. I'm not only singing to God, I am reminding myself that my God is there for me when I am broken-"the very same God that spins things in orbit, runs to the weary, the worn and the weak. And the same gentle hands that hold me when I'm broken, they conquered death to bring me victory". That's right, God is a God of victory and He knows what He is doing. It is a comforting promise to hold on to. I can't imagine going through something like this without the peace of knowing God is in control and He loves me.
I replay the song several times while praying for Hailey. I am feeling pretty good by the time I get to the hospital turnoff. It's like I have climbed up into the lap of my Heavenly Father and gained enough strength to take on one more day. MY REEDEMER LIVES!